Had a busy week

This week I have been busy I have been working in my garden putting the pool up for the kids and stitching!!!!!!!!! yes thats right I said it STITCHING!!!!!! wooohooo at long long last I can stitch again :-)))) can you tell im a little excited!!! hehe oh its been so so long. Im slow and cant do it for as long as I want but its a start right??? Its been so warm here ive been out in the garden doing it. Weve also had a bbq this weekend and a night out with friends my life suddanly just seems to be getting back on track and im spending time with the people who have been there for me the last 14 weeks. I am back at the hospital tomorrow for my physio and yes I am still supposed to be wearing my cast each time I leave the house but we will see how much longer for not too long I really do hope!!! I promise I will get some photos of my dragon up this week, thankyou to all those who have listerned to me moaning the last few months I am trying to get back to normal :-))) Hope youve all had an amazing weekend I know I have im just so happy everythings falling back into place xxxxxxxxx

20 years today

Donny and me became a couple its been a bumpy ride at times we have been through so many good times and some bad, but we are still together going strong I love you so much xxxx

good luck!!!

Leon starts his gcses today and Jake his alevels tomorrow just want to wish my boys the best of luck!!!! xxxxx

Champions league final tonight!!!

You all know who i will be cheering for!!! Gonna party weither we win or lose whoooohooo i do love the footie!!! COME ON CHELSEA!!!!!!!!!!!!! xxxxxx

FA cup party time!!!!

Today Chelsea and Liverpool are playing in the FA cup final as I am Chelsea and Donny is Liverpool we thought we might aswell have a party to celebrate well why not isnt it!!! As I can acually manage to cook a few things now as long as I take my time I have made up some spicy cheese and sausage rools and some vanilla and raspberry doughnuts and some peanut butter cookies boy have I missed baking!!! Im loving it!!!! Hope you all have a brilliant night I know we will we have Louise and her bf and his kids coming over after the footie, even though I am a little scared after my birthday party these are different people so im just looking foward to it :-)) xxxx COME ON CHELSEA!!!!!!

TIRED

had a slight break down tonight not hadling the who wrist situation to well the physio has been stepped up its so painful Ive even had to go into our neighbours to explain why im screaming yelling crying and laughing while im having it done. Its been going on for so many weeks I really did think I was a strong person but its pushed me so far so hard and learning that people you thought cared for you really dont give a damn it has all been to much :-(( Im going to be ok I guess everyone has to let it all out at some point tonight was thestart for me. I have to pick myself up now and get ready for tomorrow xxxx

My first physio session

Well I wasnt looking foward to today after all I had been through with my ankle and I was right to be nervous!!! I have been given exercises to do and boy are they gonna hurt I will try my best though I would really like to get back to normal now, will see what happens when i go back :-))

friday the 13th

And how wilol you be spending yours?? Im off to my friends daughters 15th birthday party wearing my plaster!!! Lol everyone stay safe xxx

Just a reminder

Im off today for my yearly booby check please ladies dont forget to keep an eye on yourselves and check regually xxxxxxx

Another update

Today we were at the hospital again for both my arm and my hubbys eyes. My hubbys appointment went ok he has new meds and still all his old ones but the condition hasnt worsened whioch is a good thing but he has to have glasses with a special tinted lencse to see if that will help with his light sensativity the only draw back was that they cost almost �70!!!! I was nearly crying paying for them that had better work!!!! Lmao. My appointment wasnt great. I have been told I need physio here at the hospital I am allowed to take off my cast at home and when I go out I have to wear it at all times. They have given me permission to drive without my cast as it is my right wrist and I can just hole the wheel I dont need to use it to change gears but thats a scary thought to me as I know how painful it is without my cast so I think I will wait another week before I try to do that. I just have to wait for the appointment now and see what happens next. I miss my crafts so much I am so bored I have manages to just about hold a joypad and Ive been playing the ps3 a bit which does help the boredom but Im still struggling to do much else. Id be going crazy if I didnt have my friends to pop across to for a cuppa and a chat. And incase your wondering no I havent see the others at all.

Another hospital visit

Ive been back to the hospital yet again, yes a very boring life I lead I know lol. They took off the plaster and my wrist still isnt healed :-(( I thought maybe because I was starting to be able to do a few things for myself I admit not that much but somethings it was getting better but apparantly not. I now have another cast this time though it can be removed for bathing the first week and boy does it need that!!!! But it has to be left on at all other times. And the second week it has to be removed at bed time and a few times during the daytime when I need to try to exercise it a little self physio I am so not looking foward to that it is just so painful I cant believe its taking so long to heal :-(( I do feel better im myself since stopping the painkillers but im still so useless Imiss everything I used to do, I haved stitched in weeks I havent been able to play any of my dance games on the ps3, zumba s gone out of the window. I cant cook or bake or anything.The laptop is a nono I just cant manage to hold it and type and doing it by the table is just uncomfy if I do it for to long. Nevermind they do say all good things come to those who wait I just dont like the waiting part. Back in two weeks.

Happy birthday Leon!!!

I would like to wish my baby boy a very happy 15th birthday!!! You are just growing so so fast!!! This is the first time in ages I havent been able to bake you a cake or make you a card and im so sorry I promise I will make up for it next year. Me and Daddy hope you have a wonderful day xxxxx

Two weeks later

I went to the hospital last monday the xray was good and Ive been back today thankfully they have taken off the temp plaster and replaced it with a new one, I really needed this as it was crumbling. The xrays are good my wrist was bent in such a shape when they took the older plaster off I dont think it will ever be the same again. The last two weeks of my life have been a blur, I cannot do anything for myself, every movement I make is aggony. The painkillers have made me sleepy or feeling spaced but I cannot sleep every movement just wakes me with the terrible shotting pain it gives me :-(( I feel so useless so down I hate it. Ive decided to give up the painkillers I really do not like what they are turning me into and I think its starting to scred my boys too. The people who caused the accident have been over to see one once I dont understand I thought we were friends, if I caused this accident I would of been there everyday checking if they were ok, asking if they needed anything. Iam so grateful for my friend who lives opposite she has been here everyday just calling to see how im doing if I need anything and my Dad has been wonderful. I am so grateful for all my husband is doing I have been useless in everything hes even been sleeping on the sofa to make sure he doesnt hurt me I feel so so bad. Im back at the hospital in three weeks lets hope time heels.

I was sooo wrong.

I should of known better things always go wrong and this year was no exception to that rule. The woman that came to my party got very very drunk, so drunk that she fell asleep in my garden twice whilst going for a cigarette. We had to take her home and thats when things went very badly wrong. I wish I knew what happened but truth is I dont. All I remember was walking down the street then waking up in the road with a split lip and my head spinning, when I walked into my house and looked down at my wrist I knew it wasnt good. My husband took me to A&E where they told me it was deff broken and put my arm into a temp cast and return in the morning. I took Leon back to the hospital with me after having no sleep that night from the pain. When i got to the hospital they gave me morphine twice it did nothing at all for the pain :-(( they then sedated me and sent my son out of the room where three people twist my wrist back into plcae after removing the temp cast. They told me I would feel the pain but I wouldnt remember it, they were very wrong. They then kept me there for an hour after replacing the cast taking xrays and sending Leon back in then sent me home with very strong painkillers and told me to return again in the morning. When I got up to leave I couldnt feel my legs I felt like id been drinking all night!!! We got in the taxi and went home.

When we got home my friend Louise came to check on me after she had found out what had happened and also my dad came then the pain killers kicked in but I didnt really sleep. We went back to the hospital in the morning and there they told me i had fractured my wrist in 7 places and it was a very nasty break which if slipped out of place would require surgery to pin it back in place but the xray I had this morning showed that luckily so far it had stayed in place. I had to go to the dentist with Leon then walked to the drs for more painkillers before walking home whilst in so much pain. When I finally got home I had a visit from the husband of the people who had been over to my birthday who didnt really want to see how I was just to shout at me for ignoring my facebook because Id been in the hospital for the accident that he and his wife had caused. I was too shocked to say much just hurt and supprised by this actions. I couldnt really believe what I was hearing as I didnt blame anyone for what had happened but was in too much pain to care really. Im back at the hospital next week for another Xray.

party time!!!!

Tonight I am having an early birthday party :-)) as usually things tend to go horribly wrong around my birthday I really do hope Iam making the right choice deciding to invite our friends and thier four children over along with us four. I have cooked up a storm and I have the dancing singing games ready to go I am so so looking fowrad to partying the night asway!!! As my acually birthday is on tuesday I thought saturday seemed like a good idea.

Happy birthday Donny

Today is my hubbys birthday so I just wanted to wish him a happy birthday have a wonderful day Donny xxx

New year greetings .

I hope everyones new year is off to a wonderful start, ours is going pretty good so far, our christmas was hectic but a whole lot of fun :-)) lots of parties and always seemed to have a housefull lol!! For the first time this christmas i had some stitchy gifts and i am so pleased with them it makes a big chamge for me and i was chuffed to bits :-)) I have added the charts to my to do pile all kitted up but i have to be honest i do have a whole lot to get through before i can even get started on these, I have never had a stand before so I am looking foward to giving it a try i am only ised to using my hoop so its all new!!! I had a few dancing games for xmas on the ps3 too and i am so looking foward to having a good go on them, get me up and moving and get some of this weight off lol at least i onkly put a few pounds on over xmas so its not too bad i guess. At least this year we havent been covered in snow either so its been a bit warmer which is great, I hope you are all enjoying the holidays xxx

Happy new year!!!

I hope you all enjoy your evening. We are having a street party shared between three houses tonight its gonna be hectic lol!!! Stay warm and stay safe xxxx

Merry christmas!!!

I would just like to send a warm christmas wish out to all my wonderful friends on here please have a happy and safe holidays. See you all in 2012!!!!

My latest christmassy finishes :-))

I have acually been busy stitching this month, my hubby is insisting that its because ive run out of ps3 games to play lolz if thats the case I wont be stitching for a good while once I get my xmas pressies hehehe. But I at least made all my boys their xmas cards which I am very proud of :-)) Im just so so happy with the way they have turned out and I was so glad to hear that they were liked too. It gets difficault sometimes to work out what to make for others so i just decided to make what I liked because afterall I have to work on them and i have to look at them too haha. I have even dusted off the ones I have made and have had made for me the last few years and hung them up to as I thought why not its not like most people display christmassy stuff all year well with the exception of me and my dragon dreams santas dragon hanging in my hallway. Its so big and took me so long to do it I dont see why i shouldnt have it hanging on display all year round. I have been so busy running around trying to get christmas all sorted out and finally I am done with the presant buying and I have all my cards made written and ready to mail out. And I have been busy trying out new recipies too which has been a lot of fun and the boys have deffinatly enjoyed being taste testers :-))

Its almost here!!!

Well its almost that time of year again :-)) A time for fun filled by the spirit of the season. Its started a little earlier than usual at our home as we put up our decorations last friday night where as they would usually go up tomorrow night on our carnival night. This year as i am so on top of things and our christmas is almost nearly all wrapped up i decided we could have it brought into the house just a little earlier :-))) Ive been busy working on my christmas cards the last few days while snuggled up watching christmas movies and trying to get over the chest infection i have managed to pick up somewhere but luckily this one isnt too bad i am managing to cope with out taking any meds for it so far but it really does slow me down a bit. I am hoping to finish getting the rest of my decorations up today if the time allows that is lol being busy is hard work you know!!! How are you all getting on with your christmas stitching??? And how are you getting along with your shopping??? The shopping centers by me seem to be getting busier and busier as the weeks are flying by its crazy as it seems to just speed up so much the older you get lol.

Halloween treats!!!!

This week i have been very spoilt and feel very lucky :-)) I recieved my halloween sxchange parcel from Annabella on the smo board and i loved it very much its always the exchange i look foward to most every year. It always amazes me the very different things you recieve from different countries and how everyone celebrates these things in their own ways :-)) I always look foward to sending and recieving this exchange and this year is even more special as it will be the first one ive been home in three years i know i keep saying it but i cant help myself im just so excited!!!!!!! I would love to hear how you all celebrate your halloweens if you do because i do realise that not everyone is as crazy about these holidays as i am :-)))

I was also lucky enought to recived this wonderful package full of halloween charts from Lynda its fantastic!!!! you can never have too many halloween charts i think and most of these i had never even seen which is a real bonus. Thankyou both for helping make my halloween great this year :-))))))

Been making chrsitmas cards again :-))

Here they are for you all to see :-)))

A new finish

Here is my lastest finish its from this years halloween sdition of the jcs magazine i thought it looked cute so i stitched it up :-) I used my fabbie and dmc and six strand sweets.

I have also been working on ths smo halloween sal heres my start also done on my fabbie :-) I have been using dmc so far but i did use krenick glow in the dark on the ghost too so it will come to life in the night time :-)Im looking foward to halloween this year it will be the first time in three years i will be home with all my family after Leon has finished with his kickboxing so we are going to be having a party over the weekend cant wait!!!!!!

September Update.

September has been a difficault month filled with both happy and sad times but every new month that comes our way holds dofferent challenges for us all to deal with. Leon has gone back to school this month and started on his GCSES he was given all the subjects he choose which made him a very happy boy :-) i hope he keeps his head down in school this year and concentrates on hios work and not girls lol. We hope you do well this year babe.

Jake has started college and so far is loving being out of school and in a different place school was never easy for Jake and im hoping that he will thrive in a new enviroment and he makes new friends.

I had to come to terms this month with coming face to face with my mothers mother which i have not done in over 5 years as well had a falling out. My father called and told me that she had bee taken ill on holidays nad had had a brain anirsym. I was torn with what to do and how i should be feeling about it all after everything that had happened in the past but i did decide to go to the hospital and visit with her. I have since been to see her since she has been home and made sure both my boys have been to visit her too but if im honest im not sure what happens next, Everything has changed so much in my life im still really not sure what to do for the best with this situation at all.

We also lost a close family friend this month to brain cancer. Mike was only 51 and it has hit Leon very hard as he was quite close to him. Its the first funeral i have ever had to take my son too even though he has had a few people die in his life time at only 14 now im not sure he even totally understands exactly what death means apart from that person just dissapears from your life and you never see them again. But at least he is now prepared for the fact that noone is here for ever and death is a big part of life too.

I have to say i am a long way behind on my crafts and stitching i do have a finish but i cannot show you as it is for the smo halloween exchange once it arrives in the usa i will post i promise :-)) I have been busy trying to get the garden sorted before winter oh and i have decorated my room so i guess thats kept me real busy this month.

August update

Well this has been a very fun filled month!! We have had day trips out weve been to Cardiff and tenby. Ive gotten to neet one of my stitchy friends too its the first time ive ever gone out to meet someone ive meet off the internet but im really glad i did because Hanna is great!!! here we are on the beach at tenby. Its just great getting to put a face next to a person whom you have been talking to for years via email i look foward to meeting more of my stitchy friends this way too :-)) Donny and I have also celebrated our 16 year wedding anniversary this month after being together for more of our lives than we have been apart its woth remebering just what a marriage means and how great it is to have a person in your life for so long I love you Donny xxx :-))). Our fur baby also turned 14 this month hes still going strong bless him!!! Even though he is on meds for his heart and anti=inflamitories for his athritas he still is a big part of our family and still fill of beans!!! sometimes i think he forgets just how old he is mind!!!! So happy birthday Bud!!!! Jake got his GCSE results this month too and we are just so so proud of him he got 5bs and 5cs enough to secure him his place in college and he will start his courses in september for maths and ict he was going to do physics to but has now changed his mind to do geography we hope he enjoys a new start and does just as well in his alevels. We are so proud of you Jake!!!

happy birthday Jake!!!!

WOW doesnt time fly???????????? I can hardly believe that my oldest boy is sixteen today sixteen!!!! Hes changed so much in the last year. Hes grown up so much and has a lovely girlfriend who i think is great :-)) She spends quite a lot of time here with us so its lovely to have another girl around for a change. Just wanted to say we love you Jake and hope you have a fantastic day enjoy Harry potter xxxxx

June update

Where is this year going??? June already!!! It just seems to be flying by its hard to believe that it will be christmas again in just 6 months time,,,,Life here has been busy this last few months but jake has finally finished his GCSEs and left school now we just have the wait to see how well hes done and if he will get the place in college that he wants in september. Leon has a new intrest he has gone fishing mad at the momment and its lovely to se him truley happy in his hobby for a change :-)) when he said in the kitchen this week that he is just so happy to not be lickboxing anymore i had to agree with him we are no longer under any pressure in anyway and its been fantastic to be able to go back to being me. So what about me?? what have i been upto...well to be honest not that much when it comes to stitching or crafting. I have been working on my head but slowly the sasme with my enchanting lair i will show you lol this is my haed a little more done but not much as you can see but i will get there eventually i keep telling myself haha. And this is my enchanting lair a little progress made on her wings but tahst about all. I have found myself encrossed with my ps3 playing burnout paradise and little big planet in the weeek and singstar, beatles rockband and band hero on the weekend with the boys thats when we havent all gone over to our friends for the evening having fun :-)) But saying that i really have got into zumba on the ps3 too and i am loving beging to keep fit all over again i dont think ive ever done a work out so intense and i always feel fantastic afterwards :-))

If any of you have a ps3 please feel free to add me my user name is starydreamer. Well one more thing to share with you all before i head into the garden to try and do a little stitching as it acually apears to remember that it is summer here after all lol I found there wonderful earrings in a local store in the week arent they great!! I just lovethem what a find :-)) Take care of yourselves xxxx

Sad day

30 years ago today you and you were gone for ever mam. I dont remember much being just 6 years old and in my grandparents that day home from school ill when my gan walked a=in and told me that my mammy had gone to be with the angels in heaven leaving me and my three year old sister with just a daddy. I remember thinking from that day on that I didnt like god why did he have to take my mammy??? But being older now i realise it was proberly much better for her. Truth is I only ever remember her battling the cancer not even being able to walk or talk towards the end or having any hair when it had gotten to her brain as i now know. But when your six you need your mammy.

School was hard especially around mothers day when the primary school i went to insisted on me making a card when i had no mammy to give it to and that was just the start, Growing up with my grandparents with my father living next door it was hard. I was bullied throughout my school years because of this. The hand me down clothes we used to get from family i never minded but other children can be so cruel. I found it difficault to talk to my gran about things she was so much older and though the times changed from when my mother was small we were brought up with the same rules which again made us different from other kids. I remember i was 14 when i had my first pair of jeans as they werent for girls and i wasnt allowed them i had to save the little pocket money i had and buy them myself. Silly little things i know.

It was even harder when i had my first son, especially as he was a special care baby. I was never sure if i was cut out to be a mam when i hadnt really had one myself . Every mothersday was a struggle for me thinking of what you had missed out on with me and my sister and every year i see my sons grow that year older i am so happy to still be here with them knowing i am lucky enough to have that. I try so hard to give them everything i know you would of given us love, time, attention and try to make them as good and polite as i possibly can . I just really wish you were here with us to see this and i hope that where ever you are i am making you proud love you mam xxxxx

Easter baking :-)

Here is my easter cake :-))) I love it!!! so pretty and sooo cute!!! Whats everyones plans for this easter?? I can see most of mine being spent in the garden :-))) xxx

Spring??? Its more like summer!!!

Wow it seems like we have stepped straight from winter into summer...what happened to spring???? not that im complaining one little bit its beautiful and we already have the pool up and weve had quite a few bbqs to make up from all those years we have been too busy before to make time for ourselves :-))) We had a wonderful time last night out in the garden until almost 1am!!! thats how warm it was next to fire anyways lol. And Jakes girlfriend came over for the bbq it was really a good night. I love to spent time with my boys and i have missed it so so much the last few summers they are growing far too fast these days i have to make the most of it xxxx