Let it snow let it snow let it snow

Well anywhere but here anyway lol!!!! Saying that it was very pretty to watch through the window as i was making christmas cards this morning but it didnt last long before all the rain came down and washed it all away.I have been sat down tonight trying to figure out what gifts im going to get for my boys this year they grow so fast and its so hard when you can no longer just go out and buy them toys theres nothing to built anymore on a christmas morning and i miss that along with all the excitement of the night before.

But i guess you cnt keep them small forever they hve to grow up and explore the world for themselves just like we have and hope they turn into good people.

Im sure they will still have a great day and just enjoy being home lol i doubt Jkae will be ble to pull himself away from his girlfriend for a whole day though hehehe Im easy this year lol i just would like some perfume and some makeup please santa ive been a good girl xxx i dont ask for stitchy stuff theres no point in a housefull of boys hehe

Going to see santa!!!!!!!

Yes ive decided im going to drag Donny out with me to twon to watch santa arriving at the grotto as he usually arrives on a sleigh with reindeer :-) then we will be ble to see all the lights too ahhh im looking foward to getting out for a bit with my hubby hopefully it will help his mood a little and when we get back im going to get on with my christmas hards hopefully and watch a christmas movie :-) xxx

Its carnival night

here in Llanelli tonight so that only can mean one thing for our house!!!!! and thats putting up our tree :-) Which seemed like a good idea until i went to get our tree and realised i must of thrown it out after xmas last year....ooops....lool Yes well it didnt go down too well with the kids i have to be honest so we jumped in the car and went down to argos to get a new one. It is smaller than the one we did have but its a lovely black colour and i love it.Here is bud trying to help out lol he loves xmas as much as the kids do if not a little more xxx

Christmas cards

Finally i am starting to feel a little more human today at last :-) I can walk up the stairs without getting out of breath which is fab :-) So ive decided to make some christmas cards I cant believe how fast christmas is coming and here i am no where near prepared at all. The only things i am certain of is my cake which i hve cooked myself and the turkey my dad is getting us for our dinner!!!! omg do i start to panic now!!!!!!!! Nah theres not much point now really is there lol xxxx

The joys of november...........

Well since ive come home ive been looking after donny and trying to help him through his dark patch and ive been really ill myself :-( ive hardly left my bed since monday even though i had to drive Jake to a college open evening on monday night in the pouring rain and dark hardly being able to keep my eyes open. My chest is so bad im coughing so much all the muscles in my body ache im just so tired too can hardly keep my eyes open but on the brightside at least im having it early this year. Leons been home since yesterday too but t lest his isnt as bad hopefully he will get through it quicker being a child.

Dark days

Well after returning from being away i just knew something wasnt right. Firstly thursday night my car refused to start well that will teach me for leaving it a week!!! Luckly Lidls is in walking distance so i went out to get some things we needed into wht felt like really cold conditions after coming home from the heat but i was just so happy to be home. Everything seemed ok but it wasnt.

Last night i started to realise just how bad things were. Leon went to bed quite early still tired after the traveling yesterday so Jake and me decided to play greenday rockband for a bit as Donny had his head stuck in the laptop sdoing something which i wasnt quite sure about until a few hours later. Something was bothering him i guess it was everything me be away and the hard time he knew id been given ontop of him being ignored when he came to meet us all at the airport but something inside of him kinda snaped i guess. He is already struggling with depression because of his disability and i didnt know just how much he was struggling until last night. Neither Jake or me have ever seen him act the way he did. He was saying things about his life before us and how hes always struggled with everything and how lucky he was to have us and how sorry he was for throwing everything into the kickboxing and neglecting us because of it. Why because they werent worth it now because of wwhat they have done. And hes right we hve done nothing but be helpful nd have had everything thrown back in our face for no reason at all. I dont understand myself but then again i dont really care either it gives me more time for me. He was in such a dark place it acually frightened me at one point he was even saying that he wanted it all to end he had had enough of his life what was the point. I had to try calm him down and make sure he went to bed. Its so much stress its scary but im not sure what exaclty what brought everything on but i know i will have to keep an eye on him the next few days and make sure hes taking his meds i wont ever leave him for so long again thats for sure.

We are going home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am soooooooooooooooo excited!!!!! I get to see Jake and Donny today and i cant wait and i dont care who hears it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We are up early all pcked and longing to be in a much freindly place than this is. I know people say Llanelli is dump but its my dump and i cant wait to get back to Wales!!!! To be honest it hasnt felt like we are in a different country just different place is that all traveling is i dont know lol maybe its just me :-)

Ok so this isnt the plane we were on cos we were on easy jet but this is one we saw looking out of the window lol . When we arrived back in Bristol Donny has come up on the bus to meet us and tht ws fantastic for both me and Leon after a quite awful last few hours last night and when we got home Jake was home and i hugged him so hard and Bud was so so happy to see us too :-) I dont think i could go for a week again its far too long but im home now and im so happy.

If youd like to see the photos i have taken i will be uploding them here soon http://dragoncollector.multiply.com/photos

last day :-)

Today is our last day here and i am so excited to think we will be home tomorrow i cant wait!!!!! But first i m going to enjoy the last day here.

We went to hve a breakfast this morning and then we went to the beach this morning it was 9am and so warm the best day we have had since arriving here :-)

We had a brilliant two hours laying on the beach and going in the sea its been the nicest part of the daytime just chilling out with good friends :-) It took us a while to find this part of the bech but it was well worth the walk.

Then we ll went back to the hotel for the kids to go in the pool this is Leon and Kayleigh in the cold pool its gret how they dont feel it s much as we do lol but we all went in both pools :-) Then we went down to the strip to do our last minute shopping before we leave tomorrow then we went for dinner before coming back and going back in the pool :-)

In the evening me and Andrea decided to finish off the last of the wine we hd left so we were sitting by the pool when Kayleigh came running over to tell us that Leon had fallen down the steps he was ok thankfully just bumped his back. As it was starting to get cold we decided to go sit in reception and there we st with Mark and some of the other children from the team. Andrea sked if we were all looking foward to going home which of course we ll were. Within 5 minutes i was approached by the two welsh coaches and was shouted at in front of everyone for complaining about the trip nd being miserable and segregating people from the team i was shocked i hd no idea where this had come from because as far as i was concerned id had a great week and i wasnt the only peorson who choose not to stay in the hotel every night so i ws confused and hurt. But after talking to the people i had spent time with they were also confused so i have decided i dont care what they think im me and if you dont like it dont bother with me i know who i am and i know who i like and the people that spent time with me are the only ones who know how much fun we had so i dont care :-)

Day 5

Well today is the lst day of the comp and i have to say the four of us arent exactly looking our best this morning after lst night which isnt gret as we have a very long day today and its boiling lol. We went long to wtch the final fights but was big gap inbetween so we went up to our fave cafe for some much needed food to soak up the night before lol. When we got back there ws one fight left so we managed to watch everything. When it was done Leon decided to go into that hotels out door pool for a bit which wasnt gret for me cos i was sitting wtching him constantly getting covered in black flies there were everywhere weither its because this hotel is right on the beach im not sure but i manged to drag him out so we could get back to our hotel as there is the party tonight as the comp is now all over.

We travelled down to the party tonight which was very unorganised and very expensive so well decided to walk back down to the strip and go elsewhere.Everyone seemed to go thier own ways from here for food ect so me Mark Wayne and the kids headed for the place we went to last night were Leon did karaoke which was very cute :-) Everyone was so tired after the night before that it wasnt as much fun this time so we started heding back when we bumped into Jonny Lindsey and their kids Ryan Daniella and Zara. We stayed with them for a bit while Jonny sang karaoke then made our way back when Brandon decided he wnted to stay in out room with Leon tonight which was no problem :-)

Day 4

Well new day new start i guess. I have decided i am going to try have some fun today and to hell with anyone who doesnt like it. We are going down to watch the comp today but hopefully we can leave early and guess what!!!! looks like its gonna be a nice day :-)

We got to leve quite early today our little group with a few others who came to eat with us we hd a nice meal and me and Andrea had a glass or wine too and on the way back we re going to get some sangria and sit and have a few glasses by the pool :-)

Kaye decided to join us in out few glasses by the pool so she was with us with her husband Paul and her children Joohn-Paul and Ellie and Wayne had a few drinks with us too :-) We also had Lindsey and Rachel and Mark join us which was nice. Me and Andrea even went into the outdoor pool which was really really cold almost icy lol just like the garden pool at home :-) then we went indoors in the heated pool whiched opened uptoday.

We then deicided we were going to go down to the strip for a few drinks as we hadnt been anywhere yet so off we went me,Leon,Andrea,Kayleigh,Mark,Wayne,Jordan,Brandon and Liam tagged along uninvited. We had a fantastic night dancing singing playing pool we acully got the chnce to let our hair down without worrying what everyone though it was fantastic :-) untill the kids dragged us back to the hotel about half 10 that was lol. Wayne and Brandon came with me and Leon for a glass of wine before we all headed off to bed last day tomorrow then its all over xxx

Day 3

Today is Leons fight. The day could of not started off worse for me with one of the other parents deciding to have a go at me for no reson at all and think that is perfectly fine when i have done nothing but hey thats life i guess i seem to always get the blame for something i havent done and to be honest these people re not the type worth bothering about anyway. We walked upto the fighting hotel the weather still isnt too good still quite wet and cool but thats supposed to change soon so theres hope for that.

Leon had his fight second year in a row hes had a boy a lot taller and heavier than him he did an fantasic job but unfortunitly didnt win this time but hey you cant win everytime and i am just so proud of him for trying i really am :-) And he is so happy with the fact he did his best he enjoyed himself.

I spoke to Donny and Jake on skype today and after a very hard day i have to say i am missing them both so so much and knowing im not traveling home till thursday is weighing heavily on me tonight its one of them times when you know you need a cuddle but half of the people you love are thusands of miles away and the guilt of going away and leaving them home isnt helping either. Well im going to bed now and im hoping that tomorrow is a better day for both me and Leon xxxx

Day 2

Today the contest beginings four days of it. The opening ceromony is this morning and then the fights start . Leon isnt fighting until tomorrow so today we will be supporting the rest of the team. When we get back to the hotel we will be going down to the strip to have a look at the shops.

Day 1

This morning we traveled down to the fighting hotel to register and pay for the fight. Also the team Wales photo wss taken. Its a dull morning here not that warm either we have also had some rain just like being at home lol. As you can see from the photo.

When we arrived back at the hotel me and Leon decided along with my cousion Andrea and her daughter Kayleigh, Mark, and Wayne and his sons Jordan and Brandon to go for a walk to see what we could discover :-) Our little group is made up of all those who have left loved ones at home and we all can cheer each other up :-) It started off quite warm so we were all wearing tshirts and shorts....big mistake!!!!! While we were out it absolutly hammered down lol the roads turned to rivers within seconds i dont think i have ever ever seen so much rain fall so quickly at one time!!!!!!!! we were all like drowned rats bout a mile away from the hotel with no were to shelter I thought it was funny i think i was the only one hehehe

Here is a photo of the kids they are going to get really close this week i think xxx

We have arrived!!!!

After a delay in taking off at Bristol because of the strike in France we have touched down safely in Portugal. Leon was more frightened than me he started to panic when we were getting on to the plane but i managed to calm him down eventually I really dont think the hour wait we had sitting on the plne helped his nerves very much but once the plane started moving he was just fine :-) It was a fantastic experience and we both loved every minute off it and cant wait for the flight home!!!!

We have lovely room which is pleanty big enough for the two of us but its been very long day and night so we are off to bed nite nite xxx

Here we go!!!!!!

Tonight is the night that we fly to Portugal for the world kickboxing championships. Its just me and Leon going and to be honest yes I am little frightened after all it is a whole new experience to the both of us so it would be silly to say we were not afraid of the unexpected lol. But t the same time i am totally looking foward to the thought of trying something that i never have done before. We are leaving here at 1.30am and getting on the plane at 6.20am in Bristol and arriving in Portugal at 9am wish us luck!!!!

Stitchy slump

To be honest these days all that seems to take up my time is kickboxing if im not there supporting Leon i am doing it or driving my husband back and fore between classes and fund raising and events i dont feel like KAY anymore just the person who is at the club. If im honest ive been feeling like this for a while but i feel guilty if i think about some me time is that so worng??? I dont know i know i need to get Leon sponsored up in time to go to Portugal but i am also the person who everyone turns to when they need some help qhich i guess i dont mind i am a peoples person well thats what i like to think i am always happy to help so should i stop whinging and get on with it???? HHHMMMM maybe lol. But i miss my crafting and stitching sssssssssssssssoooooooooooooo much ah well maybe one day hey..............

Charlies quilt

Rose asked me and the girls on my board to make a quilt for her nephew as he is ill and being the type of girls we are of course how could we say no :-) This is my design i made it myself as Charlie loves karaoke I have to be honest i havent designed much myself but hey i liked it lol

Louise Sarah and Barb also stitched a square along with Rose of course and Charlie was lucky enough to have both sides filled up.

And here he is all cwtched up in it. We are all so glad you liked it Charlie!!! Stay strong xxxx

Happy Anniversary Donny

Wow time flies i really cant believe we have been married for 15 years today and that we have been together almost 19 years its the longest i have ever held anyone this close to me . You were the first person i really let into my heart im always so unsure of people and most of the time i get hurt when i do let people in. Im not saying its all been a bed of roses everyone has difficault times but ours seem to be when other people are involoved more than anything else but we have proved so many people wrong and we are still together and i just want you to know how much i love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Happy birthday Jake!!!!

Well my baby is 15 today where does the time go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Soon youll be grown up and gone and my ears will hurt from the silence hehehe only joking my babe you know how much i love you!! Youve changed so much these last 6months all moody and long hair and dark clothes the music you listern to is so dark you and your friends all look alike too even the girls but when your with me your the same Jake. Have a wonderful day huni we love you loads xxxxxxxxx

WKC Welsh championship

Today was the welsh kickboxing championships which was a really busy day for me I was at the hall before 9am and wasnt getting home untill 9.30pm. I didnt realise how much work goes into organising a championships we were there most of yesterday afternoon getting the place ready for today and then i spent the whole day either time keeping scoring the points fights and then being Leons coach which i was so please to have him win all three that i coached him with :-) the only one he lost i wasnt in his corner lol

here he is winning silver in the points catagory.And here he is winning gold in the light continuos catagory. The photos are thanks to Jake who took all the photos and video footage on the day and did a fantastic job. Now we know Leon has got into the welsh team we have to start fund rasing for him to get him to Portugal for the world championships in october :-)

sponsored walk

Today we had a sponsored walk from Llanelli beach to Burry Port harbour to raise funds for the junior welsh kick boxing team. We had a beautiful warm day it was more like summer than spring the sun came out to shine on us as we walked well Leon cycled lol but it was great fun there was around 60 of us on the walk and even Jake and his friends came with us.

I was a little worried that i wouldnt be able to make it the whole distannce with my ankle but i did and was just so glad i could :-). All my photos are on facebook if you want to go take a look.

I havent been around much lately ive got Leon home he was attacked by a group of children for no reason and its been nothing but hospital appointments since it seems like an extra long half term holidays for him buut it mans we either have to take him everywhere or leave him home which at the momment i dont like doing either his face was a mess and the school have been no help just feels like we are going around in circles. The school tell us report it to the police the police say its a school matter even though things are happening both inside of school and out. The world is changing too fast for my liking and things where never this bad when i was a child i just dont know what to to next i really dont.

Happy birthday Leon!!!!

I can hardly believe that my baby is 13 today where does the time go.... it doesnt seem that long ago i was cradling you in my arms and bringing you home to meet your little brother and now i have two teenages in the house well it seems like 5 or 6 when all your and Jakes friends are over most days lol. I hope the years slow down a bit so i get to keep you young that little bit longer happy birthday babe we love you xxxxx

Happy birthday to me!!!!

I cant believe how quickly this year is flying by. I just wanted to come on and say a big thankyou to everyone who has made my birthday so special this year especially as it hasnt been the best start with the children being ill my hubby having another fright with his vision and my accident oh yeah and did i mention all the snow!!!!!! LOL

I had a nice day we did have a two hour class of kickboxing mind you but it gave me the chance to sit and chat with my friends so that wasnt so bad. I was spoilt this year i have to say Jake bought me a lovely necklace and Leon bought me some chocolates and candles. Donny got me sing star take that and i love it so much remembering all the old songs that really made me smile :-) i will be getting a new laptop too and thats something i really do need!!! My friends from kcikboxing Rachel and Leighton got me some chocolates and vodka lol they know what i like!!!! My friend Debbie baked me a cake and made me a lovely card i also got cards from Amy and Stella at the club. I recieved a lovely parcel from my dear friend Nicky with some new halloween charts she knows what i like :-) some krenick and beads and a lovely shade of nail vanish. My dad also gave me some money which i plan to use on singstore which will make me happy :-)

So in all i had a fantastic day :-) especially when my hubby made me a wonderful meal that night too i was just sad that the boys werent feeling very well it was a shame nevermind i will get to have some of my cake tomorrow!!!!!

Another kickboxing contest

It seems these days all i ever seem to write about is kickboxing or stitching looks like thats all thats ever going on here i guess and more often than not it is just kickboxing!!!! My youngest son is really enjoying it but i think that my hubby is enjoying it even more lol. I was enjoying it before my accident but as i have now sat out for almost 5 weeks my intrest seems to be growing less and less enthusiastic i have to say i guess sitting watching and just being able to chat seems like the easier option it just seems to look like hard work now...i guess this is my lazy side raising its head again. I am getting around better and i am at long last able to just about manage to drive and i can walk with out my crutches but i am still struggling with steps espically coming down them and slopes. I have also stopped wearing my bandage and my foot is quite close to looking like it should. But the thought of going back next month im just not sure if or when i will be ready..

Here is how well Leon did he had a second and a third place even though he had an asthma attack during his second contest he did amazing well especially as it was the first attack he has ever suffered he was very brave and we are very proud of him. Even if the whole contest was a complete shambles. We arrived in Ely in Cardiff at 9am as the contest was supposed to start at 10am but it didnt get started untill almsot 1pm the children had lost all thier spark and were so fed up i realy am supprised that they all did so fantasticly well. Well done everyone xx

Happy Valentines day

As a rule my hubby and i dont do valentines day never really have we have decided that we dont need a comercial holiday where it forces people to buy gifts and cards to say i love you. If you truly love someone you should show them these everyday just by the things you do and say. But i know that there are a lot of people who do and to those of you i want to wish you a happy day :-). W e had a busy day with two hours of kick boxing as usual on a sunday which i walked to today for the first time without use of my crutches and i am so so pleased i managed it!!!!! My ankle is still quite swollen and brusied and sore to the touch after my accident but i am managing to get around slowly with stairs still being my biggest difficaultly and the moment and still not being able to bend my ankle very much means i am still not able to drive my car which is very annoying i must say i am beging to wonder if after not being started or moved for three weeks now it will even work when i am ready to try drive it. I did have a lovely evening though i had some wine and some chocolate and sat down and watched twilight it was perfect i hope you all enjoyed too xx

It was out friends at kickboxing anniversary today to i made them a card. This is my first ever attempt at a 3d card and was unsure about having a go to begin with but after i was very glad that i did and i am very pleased with the finish. I think i will be trying more of these out in the near future.

Snow sal finished!!!

Im so pleased with myself here is my second finish for 2010 which keeps me so far so good up with my own challenges!!! I do have to admit that i do need to turn this into an orniment but at least its done 2 down only 22 to go for the rest of the year!!!!!

My kick boxing accident

This is what happened to me after i had an accident in kickboxing on sunday i had only been doing class for 10 mins but i still had some of my cold i shopuld of known better i wasnt 100% i should of sat out but i didnt want to i guess i paying for it now. This was in the hspital about an hour and a half later and this is on tuesday

here are the last photo i have taken today as you can see the brusing is coming out more and more and it hurts a lot!! but thankls to my two wonderful sons and hubby i am being well taken care of :-)

Second day of snow sal

here is my second day of my snow sal being laid up with this ankle i guess theres not much else left for me to do really!!!

First fiish of 2010

Here she is my halloween fairy that seems to have taken sooooooo long to acually get completed lol!!! My stitching time has seemed so far and few between grasped moments that i can hardly believe i am able to show the completed project at long last!! I am however a little disapointed that i have been unable to show you how sparkly and well beaded she is the photo just doest seem to do her much justice at all but at least you get to see her finally. Thankyou Louise for sending me the mchart so so much and thankyou Tonya for the gv from which i was able to get all the beads :-)

snow sal

This month on my board is snow month i guess its after all the snow we have had to deal with this month it just seemed to be the right theme to run with!!!! I choose a smo design for my sal and have made a start with the lettering what do you think

Happy birthday wishes

to my wonderful husband Donnyi hope you have a fantastic day i love you loads xxxxxx

Happy new year!!!

I just wanted to wish you all a very happy healthy and love filled 2010!!!!!!!

2009 hasnt been a bad year for me i traveled with my youngest son to a world championships in a sport he had only been doing 6 months when he became a double welsh champion and then won a world bronze medal after just a year he has also done 4 belts and will be going for his fifth in february he has also won several other trophoes from competitions i wish him all the luck with all future contests we are all VERY proud of him well done Leon xx

Jake has done very well with his exams and got to choose all his subjects for his gcses being top band in school and working hard to keep himself there is something we are also all VERY proud of and he is still trying to learn to play guitar im sure he will get there one day lol!!!

At the end of 2009 Donnys eyes seem to be improving he can see a lot more close up out of one eye but still just a tiny glipse of colour out of the other at the moment so it seems a much brighter path he is heading along so thats all good too.

I have had a good year i enjoyed treaveling with Leon and the team and even walked out as part of the team at the world championships that was something else lol!!! I have achived my first kickboxing belt even thought it was something i never thought i would do and i am now attending classes three times a week hopefully during 2010 it will help me shape up more ..hopefully ..mind you so would laying off the crisps and wine but i cant do that lol!!! i havent done as much as i would of liked to on the craft side but with the house getting a make over and Donny and the boys to take care of i guess i just havent had the time gonna try to do more though new year new start..........

have fun tonight everyone but please stay safe xxxx

Merry christmas

I would just like to wish you all a very merry happy and safe christmas.I hope you all enjoy time with your loved ones and smile all day long. Dont forget to make the most of it as your children grow so fast and you get get these things back. Have a wonderful day xxx

Its almost time for santa

I can hardly believe it is christmas eve already where has this year gone wow it just seems to go quicker and quicker with each year it realy does. We are almost all ready here all the shopping is done and now its just time to spend time with my boys and relax. I would like to say a big thankyou to all those who took the time and effort in sebnding me a christmas card i seem to always be sending out some sort of card to someone lol but the prices are getting silly now with the post office so this will be the last year i make an effort to send to someone who doesnt have the time to send one to me it just doesnt seem like making the effort of making the card to some people who dont even say thankyou sometimes is worth the effort a bit harsh maybe....yes i know its the time for giving but thaankyou aways goes a long way hey.

Thankyou Rose for sending me these lovely gifts i really wasnt expecting them so it makes it so special that you thought of me this way i really do hope you and John have a wonderful holidays together.
And thankyou Nicky for the wonderful gifts that you sent me they are under my tree untill tomorrow morning and i cant hardly wait to see what i have hun xxx

This years christmas cards

Here are the christmas cards i made for my sons for christmas the one on the left os for Leon as he is always the joker of the two boys even though both cards are funny this one made me laugh the most when i first found the design and i knew i HAD to make them into cards for my boys. The one on the right is for Jake as this is the type of thing he would do when taking a photo lol xx.It had been a very long while since i picked up a needle and i did really enjoy stitching these cards i really need to try make more time to do more as i have really missed it so much.

When i first seen this design in cross stitcher i had to stitch it into a card for my dh for xmas but i did not count on having to do it twice so bewarned now!!!!!!! if you are stitching it for anyone who is an avid liverpool fc supporter just dont do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
apartantly its an everton mont and its the last thing they want lol so i had to re do it so it acually looked like a humbug lol x

I did it!!!

Here i am being awarded my red belt. I was so nervous but at the same time happy i managed to acually do something by myself for myself :-)

Another kickboxing competition

This sunday our club traveled upto Cardiff for a kickboxing competition. Donny travelled up with Leon and the coach and his daughter and her boyfriend and i satyed home with Jake and went to help Rachel out with the kickboxing club. Leon competed in two events the first was point scoring . This isnt Leons strongest one and he won silver. Unfortunitly after traveling all they way up the three boys pictures who are all in our club had to all fight each other, But they all did very well.
The second fight that Leon was in is the light contitnuous which is his stronger one. Here he won a gold and we are very very proud of him.Hmmmm think im gonna have to buy a bigger cupbiard though as together with his and Jakes rugby awards im gonna start running out of space lol!!!!

Tonights the night

As i write this my hands are shaking im so so nervous i dont know why i really dont!!! its not like im the only one whos going to be there doing it almost the whole room is afterall but i just cant escape the knot that is tightening in my stomach the more today turns closer into this evening. This was never part of the plan then again none of it really was from the start so i didnt plan on this happening at all!!! Incase you are wondering i am standing up tonight in a room full of people and performing my kata to try and get my red belt in kickboxing and i am dreading every minute of it!!!! I stood up in front of all the people that are going to be there and a whole lot more singing at the karaoke party but this....this is so so different!!!!!! Please wish me luck i will find out on wednesday how i did xxx

parents evening

Tonight was Leons turn to shine as it was his parents evening the only thing is with his world championships and all the time he has had off ill since weve been back there really wasnt much they can tell me apart from he is a really clever boy and deserves his place in the top set where he is. His only downfall is he likes to chat a bit too much lol sounds just like his mum hey!!!! xx Now we just have to wait for Jakes.