17 years today

I married my hubby, hard to believe how fast time goes it sneaks up on you before you know it!! I just wanted to wish my hubby a happy anniversary im looking forward to a child free evening ok they will still be here but in their bedrooms :-)) Happy anniversary babe xxx

Happy birthday Jakey!!!

I can hardly believe that my oldest will be a fully grown adult this time next year............ when he was born 17 years ago I really didnt know how long I would have my baby for the way he came into this world, 11 days late I was indused and then that took 2 days untill they finally put me on a drip and he was born with no crying and he was grey with no heart beat. They brought him around showed me quickly what he looked like and then he was gone upto the scbu and I was left with empty arms and a photo of you. The first few weeks of your life yopu were sicky and then they thought you had meningitas when you were two weeks old and I nearly lost you again but baby you were a fighter!! Two weeks before your first birthday you were in hospital again having an operation on your tounge which you managed to slice open in a zigzag falling over this again was an awful experience when they gassed you in my arms to make you sleep and you went limp in my arms. Up to the age of 5 you were in and out of hospital with sickness they just couldnt explain. When I look at you now I really cant believe how lucky I am that you are still here after all that you have been through. Youve made us so pround and we are so lucky to have you and your brother you are both wonderful children and we love you loadsxxxx HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAKE!!!!!!

What ive been working on while watching the footie :-)

I love the football thats no secret and its been great being able to watch two games everyday since last saturday :-)) I thought on monday it maybe a good idea to try and fit in a little stitching time while I enjoy it :-)) So I pulled out one of the charts hubby bought me for christmas and decided it looked easy enough to be able to concentrate on the game and the stitching at the same time hehe and it seems to be going well. I also started a new diet on monday so this helps take my mind off eating a little too which is great, I really need to lose some of the weight ive put on while not being asble to use my arm but im getting my life back on track slowly and trying to forget those that clearly forgot me after what they did. I also have been working on my fitness and I tried out UFC trainer on the ps3 move on tuesday morning and i have to say im still suffering today haha but oh well no pain no gain right :-))

My first finish of the year :-))

Here is my very first finish of the year I am so happy to finally be back stitching that I really dont care that it is june LOL Its a dragon dreams design called treasure them now and is done on sassys fabbies, it was slow and quite painful at times to complete but at last its finished!!!! Doubt very much though that I will complete my goal of 12 finishes in 12 months I guess I will have to start that again in January.

Stitchy update at very long last :-))

Here is an update of my stitching I have to say it has been a very very long 14 weeks with out lifting my needle I didnt ever think I would miss something quite so much but I really really have its just sooooo nice to be back doing something I love im never going to take advatage of being able bodied so much again. I have had a lovely morning baking chocolate cake with my youngest today he maybe 15 but its so nice we can still do these things together I guess it helps that its been pouring with rain since yesterday afternoon so hes home for a change :-)) I hope you all enjoy your weekend and bank holidays for all those here in the uk xxx

Had a busy week

This week I have been busy I have been working in my garden putting the pool up for the kids and stitching!!!!!!!!! yes thats right I said it STITCHING!!!!!! wooohooo at long long last I can stitch again :-)))) can you tell im a little excited!!! hehe oh its been so so long. Im slow and cant do it for as long as I want but its a start right??? Its been so warm here ive been out in the garden doing it. Weve also had a bbq this weekend and a night out with friends my life suddanly just seems to be getting back on track and im spending time with the people who have been there for me the last 14 weeks. I am back at the hospital tomorrow for my physio and yes I am still supposed to be wearing my cast each time I leave the house but we will see how much longer for not too long I really do hope!!! I promise I will get some photos of my dragon up this week, thankyou to all those who have listerned to me moaning the last few months I am trying to get back to normal :-))) Hope youve all had an amazing weekend I know I have im just so happy everythings falling back into place xxxxxxxxx

20 years today

Donny and me became a couple its been a bumpy ride at times we have been through so many good times and some bad, but we are still together going strong I love you so much xxxx

good luck!!!

Leon starts his gcses today and Jake his alevels tomorrow just want to wish my boys the best of luck!!!! xxxxx

Champions league final tonight!!!

You all know who i will be cheering for!!! Gonna party weither we win or lose whoooohooo i do love the footie!!! COME ON CHELSEA!!!!!!!!!!!!! xxxxxx

FA cup party time!!!!

Today Chelsea and Liverpool are playing in the FA cup final as I am Chelsea and Donny is Liverpool we thought we might aswell have a party to celebrate well why not isnt it!!! As I can acually manage to cook a few things now as long as I take my time I have made up some spicy cheese and sausage rools and some vanilla and raspberry doughnuts and some peanut butter cookies boy have I missed baking!!! Im loving it!!!! Hope you all have a brilliant night I know we will we have Louise and her bf and his kids coming over after the footie, even though I am a little scared after my birthday party these are different people so im just looking foward to it :-)) xxxx COME ON CHELSEA!!!!!!

TIRED

had a slight break down tonight not hadling the who wrist situation to well the physio has been stepped up its so painful Ive even had to go into our neighbours to explain why im screaming yelling crying and laughing while im having it done. Its been going on for so many weeks I really did think I was a strong person but its pushed me so far so hard and learning that people you thought cared for you really dont give a damn it has all been to much :-(( Im going to be ok I guess everyone has to let it all out at some point tonight was thestart for me. I have to pick myself up now and get ready for tomorrow xxxx

My first physio session

Well I wasnt looking foward to today after all I had been through with my ankle and I was right to be nervous!!! I have been given exercises to do and boy are they gonna hurt I will try my best though I would really like to get back to normal now, will see what happens when i go back :-))

friday the 13th

And how wilol you be spending yours?? Im off to my friends daughters 15th birthday party wearing my plaster!!! Lol everyone stay safe xxx

Just a reminder

Im off today for my yearly booby check please ladies dont forget to keep an eye on yourselves and check regually xxxxxxx

Another update

Today we were at the hospital again for both my arm and my hubbys eyes. My hubbys appointment went ok he has new meds and still all his old ones but the condition hasnt worsened whioch is a good thing but he has to have glasses with a special tinted lencse to see if that will help with his light sensativity the only draw back was that they cost almost �70!!!! I was nearly crying paying for them that had better work!!!! Lmao. My appointment wasnt great. I have been told I need physio here at the hospital I am allowed to take off my cast at home and when I go out I have to wear it at all times. They have given me permission to drive without my cast as it is my right wrist and I can just hole the wheel I dont need to use it to change gears but thats a scary thought to me as I know how painful it is without my cast so I think I will wait another week before I try to do that. I just have to wait for the appointment now and see what happens next. I miss my crafts so much I am so bored I have manages to just about hold a joypad and Ive been playing the ps3 a bit which does help the boredom but Im still struggling to do much else. Id be going crazy if I didnt have my friends to pop across to for a cuppa and a chat. And incase your wondering no I havent see the others at all.

Another hospital visit

Ive been back to the hospital yet again, yes a very boring life I lead I know lol. They took off the plaster and my wrist still isnt healed :-(( I thought maybe because I was starting to be able to do a few things for myself I admit not that much but somethings it was getting better but apparantly not. I now have another cast this time though it can be removed for bathing the first week and boy does it need that!!!! But it has to be left on at all other times. And the second week it has to be removed at bed time and a few times during the daytime when I need to try to exercise it a little self physio I am so not looking foward to that it is just so painful I cant believe its taking so long to heal :-(( I do feel better im myself since stopping the painkillers but im still so useless Imiss everything I used to do, I haved stitched in weeks I havent been able to play any of my dance games on the ps3, zumba s gone out of the window. I cant cook or bake or anything.The laptop is a nono I just cant manage to hold it and type and doing it by the table is just uncomfy if I do it for to long. Nevermind they do say all good things come to those who wait I just dont like the waiting part. Back in two weeks.

Happy birthday Leon!!!

I would like to wish my baby boy a very happy 15th birthday!!! You are just growing so so fast!!! This is the first time in ages I havent been able to bake you a cake or make you a card and im so sorry I promise I will make up for it next year. Me and Daddy hope you have a wonderful day xxxxx

Two weeks later

I went to the hospital last monday the xray was good and Ive been back today thankfully they have taken off the temp plaster and replaced it with a new one, I really needed this as it was crumbling. The xrays are good my wrist was bent in such a shape when they took the older plaster off I dont think it will ever be the same again. The last two weeks of my life have been a blur, I cannot do anything for myself, every movement I make is aggony. The painkillers have made me sleepy or feeling spaced but I cannot sleep every movement just wakes me with the terrible shotting pain it gives me :-(( I feel so useless so down I hate it. Ive decided to give up the painkillers I really do not like what they are turning me into and I think its starting to scred my boys too. The people who caused the accident have been over to see one once I dont understand I thought we were friends, if I caused this accident I would of been there everyday checking if they were ok, asking if they needed anything. Iam so grateful for my friend who lives opposite she has been here everyday just calling to see how im doing if I need anything and my Dad has been wonderful. I am so grateful for all my husband is doing I have been useless in everything hes even been sleeping on the sofa to make sure he doesnt hurt me I feel so so bad. Im back at the hospital in three weeks lets hope time heels.

I was sooo wrong.

I should of known better things always go wrong and this year was no exception to that rule. The woman that came to my party got very very drunk, so drunk that she fell asleep in my garden twice whilst going for a cigarette. We had to take her home and thats when things went very badly wrong. I wish I knew what happened but truth is I dont. All I remember was walking down the street then waking up in the road with a split lip and my head spinning, when I walked into my house and looked down at my wrist I knew it wasnt good. My husband took me to A&E where they told me it was deff broken and put my arm into a temp cast and return in the morning. I took Leon back to the hospital with me after having no sleep that night from the pain. When i got to the hospital they gave me morphine twice it did nothing at all for the pain :-(( they then sedated me and sent my son out of the room where three people twist my wrist back into plcae after removing the temp cast. They told me I would feel the pain but I wouldnt remember it, they were very wrong. They then kept me there for an hour after replacing the cast taking xrays and sending Leon back in then sent me home with very strong painkillers and told me to return again in the morning. When I got up to leave I couldnt feel my legs I felt like id been drinking all night!!! We got in the taxi and went home.

When we got home my friend Louise came to check on me after she had found out what had happened and also my dad came then the pain killers kicked in but I didnt really sleep. We went back to the hospital in the morning and there they told me i had fractured my wrist in 7 places and it was a very nasty break which if slipped out of place would require surgery to pin it back in place but the xray I had this morning showed that luckily so far it had stayed in place. I had to go to the dentist with Leon then walked to the drs for more painkillers before walking home whilst in so much pain. When I finally got home I had a visit from the husband of the people who had been over to my birthday who didnt really want to see how I was just to shout at me for ignoring my facebook because Id been in the hospital for the accident that he and his wife had caused. I was too shocked to say much just hurt and supprised by this actions. I couldnt really believe what I was hearing as I didnt blame anyone for what had happened but was in too much pain to care really. Im back at the hospital next week for another Xray.

party time!!!!

Tonight I am having an early birthday party :-)) as usually things tend to go horribly wrong around my birthday I really do hope Iam making the right choice deciding to invite our friends and thier four children over along with us four. I have cooked up a storm and I have the dancing singing games ready to go I am so so looking fowrad to partying the night asway!!! As my acually birthday is on tuesday I thought saturday seemed like a good idea.