Games night.

With hubby having a relapse with his eyes last few days and spending most of today in bed, Leon and I decided to play pictionary on the ps3,well, as a person who cant draw a straight line with a ruler, having to use a pen and pad to try draw on the screen was well entertaining to say the least!!!! The drawings where well hard to make out and nothing like they should be!!! But it was so much fun and we laughed so hard I loved it!!!

A quiet sunday and some stitching

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So its no secret I like supernatural so I have charted my own chart through a photo I found online using my pc stitch, I would love to buy one as there are no official ones I cant so as Im not using this for profit in anyway I don't think there is anything wrong with what I am doing. Here's how its looking atm.

Rugby days!!

Yes!!!! the rugby was back on today!!!! WALES WALES WALES!!!!! I do so love the rugby a chance to be loud and happy!!! even if its on too early to have a beer or two and really enjoy it!!! And we did win but we also could of played a whole lot better!!! still loved it though :-))

I also got a chance to meet Leon's girlfriend properly today and she seems like a nice friendly polite girl and hopefully he has made a better choice with this one that his brother has made, but that's up to him I love to have another girl in the house I'm not so out numbered then lol but I am going to be a bit more careful this time around once bitten and all that which is a real shame that someone can hurt you that much that you have to be this careful x

I also had to pay my car tax today, thankful this car isn't a quarter of the old price but I wish I could see what I was paying for as to drive around there you are all over the road avoiding the holes!!!

I also learned a few things about two different people today from my past, I'm not going into it into to much detail but I will say, what goes around in one case, and in the other, if you had spent more time doing these things with your own you wouldn't need other peoples to make up for it now. Looking back I am much happier where I am now than I was around either of you anyway.

Bathing the dog!!

With all this wet weather my little pup is black instead of white!!! the back garden is a mud bath, it seems like Im fighting a constand battle to keep my wooden flooring clean between him and the cats sooo it looks like he needs yet another bath!!! Why is it though I always seem to be the wettest when its done!!!

I decided on lasagne for tea tonight with a nice big glass of wine!! well it is Friday night after all, followed by some greenday rockband with my boys :-))

Where's it all going??

Where is this year going?? one more day and it will be February. You know you are getting old when the months just seem to be flying by!!! I was a good girl last night and after baking a cake some bread and making food I did sit and redo all the work that the frog had made me pull apart, and my second wolf is acualy starting to look like a wolf!!! It's going to be a long while before its all finished though, it's just so big with so many colour changes, but it will be done this year!!! well fingers crossed!!!

CBB final night!!!

Tonight is the cbb final and I am sooo looking forward to it, I really would like to see Dappy win but I can see Jim Davidson walking away with it. But there you go he has been quite entertaining I guess lol. I have my wine chilling in the fridge and I am cooking pork in red wine sauce with garlic mashed potatoes and green beans hhhmmm :-)) the only problem is I know its going to take ages to cook and I'm going to be starving!!!!!!

AARRRHHHH

Well, after yesterdays event I am having a quiet day and this evening I tried to do some stitching on my wolves to relax me while I watched some tv with hubby, and it was all going so well too, until that was I noticed I had made a mistake right at the start and had to pull nearly all of it lose!!!! stupid, stupid frog gggrrrrr ah well it did help me relax for a while I guess!!!! 

Really don't understand some people.

After such a great day yesterday, today has left me feeling disapointed, I will never understand how or why people can be so nasty and hurtful towards those you are supposed to want to love and protect I am just so angry.

It started when I got a phone call from my Dad. He had been down to see my mothers mother, for those of you that know me well enough will know that my mother passed away 33 years ago this way from breast cancer but my father does sometimes still drop by to see my grandmother. My mothers sister has terminal cancer and was given a few years to live a few weeks ago she has it in her spine, neck, lower back and has shadows on the lungs and her hip. She has been for a brain scan but luckily that is all clear at the moment but she really hasn't been very well the last few weeks. Which is why I don't understand how her own mother can sit there and say that there is nothing wrong with her and she is just looking for sympathy. This is your only daughter I don't understand why you can say such a spiteful, nasty and hurtful thing.....shouldn't you be there to support her and help her through it all?? You have already lost one daughter to this awful deasease. I'm lost for words at the fact you show no motherly love towards your daughter.

When my mother died my grandparents stepped in and took us from our Dad as he had nursed my mother at home up until the day my mother died. I never understood what really went on back then after all I was only 6. I was close to my gran even when she put me down, told me what I should and should'nt be thinking and doing, even when I had my own children she would try to correct me and if I told one of them off in front of her she would cuddle them and make it look like everything I was doing was wrong. It wasn't until we fell out and I took a step back I could see for myself how controling she was and how often she had come between my husband and myself as she never really liked him. It was one of the best things I ever did and I cant see myself running back to her after all of this. 

I guess there are some people who just are I don't know what the best word that even describes it is, self centered maybe, there are too many of them around, I'm just glad I am not like her. Well at least I really hope Im not.

Super sundays!!!

Today is going to be a great Sunday!!! First off I am cooking a Sunday dinner which is one of the best things about a Sunday a lovely roast hhhmmm today is pork with apple sauce. Also there is footie on the telly so I will just get to sit relax and enjoy :-))

Tonight there is also a big brother eviction, the last one before the final on Wednesday I don't usually watch the celeb big brother but this time round it has really been amazing and I have loved every minute of it and I am going to miss it so much when its over.

Saturday nights!!

I may have mentioned this a million times!! but I really do love the weekends I love spending time with my Dad and step mum on a Saturday and relaxing in the afternoon before having a glass of wine and cooking a meal and then getting to do some karaoke. It may not be everyone's idea of a good time but I love it. I thought I would show you a picture of the pineapple gateux I made this afternoon, because if I didn't take a photo  no one would see it it will go so fast!!! Hope you all have a great weekend!!!

When do you know

I have had the way I live my life decided for me the last 18 years when I chose  to become a mum. But when do you decide  the time is right to start letting your children choose to do what is right for them and stand back and either watch it work out or crumble and be there for support?? Its been a challenging year and its a difficult decison to sit back when you can see what's happening is'nt for the best, but sometimes that's just what you have to do. When it seems like you are less and less important to someone does that mean its time to start living your life for yourself a little more? or is that you being selfish?? I guess only time will tell.

On another note, am I wrong to think its a midlife crisis for a male friend who is in his late 30's to be chasing after a 19 year old girl?? I seriously don't understand it, maybe its as I have an 18 year old and I still think at that age they are children and don't see how they can be on the same wave lengh. But I seriosly just don,t get it, especially when from what I can understand it seems that this girl will only spend time with my friend if she takes other girls the same age as her with her when ever they do see each other, its like he is one of the Dads driving the girls around, this is just what I think but I just don't understand it at all.

And looking back on everything today's has taught me I think my homornes are slightly outta wack today so I think I better leave it at that.

Rainy again

I know its winter, and yes I know its Wales, but really!!! what is with all this rain and winds it feels like we are acually living in the game heavy rain :(( roll on summer long warm days and sunshine....yesterday really was lovely but once a week just isnt enough!!!!

Sunshine and the beach!!!

Wooohooo!!! the sun came out at very long last!!! so what did we do??? BEACH!!!! yeap we took Jensen to the beach for a walk while we could :-)) It was cold but oh so nice to finally be able to get out for a bit with out getting wet and a double bonus for the puppy as he loves the car.

 So we spent a lovely few hours trying to wear him out, didn't work mind you but he seemed to have a ball, Ah well hopefully we can get out again before the rain comes back and spoils our fun again!!! We are so very lucky to live this close to the beach. 

More rain

Starting to sound like a broken record here but yeap its still wet!!! Its just so depressing I feel sorry for the puppy as he is still waiting to go out for a walk but there's just no point everything is soaking and this rain seems never ending. But tomorrow we are supposed to have a break!!! they are saying we are going to have some sun!!! I know I can hardly believe it myself!!! Time will tell we shall see x

A day of cleaning and heartache

So I plan to get all my cleaning done today so I can have tomorrow off haha like that's going to happen with this weather and a puppy back and fore through the back door bring muddy paw prints through the house every few hours...but I'm gonna try any ways. Well I dusted all the shelves down and pulled down Buds pedigree certificate that upset me, just stood there with tears in my eyes thinking of him remembering him, hitting me this is the second birthday I spend without him, I love and miss him so so much :-(( Then I got on my hands and knees and started scrubbing the floor, and do you know what?? apparently there was an earthquake. well I have to be honest, I didn't notice it!!! Its a shame I would like to experience it kinda I think lol I do remember one before but that wasn't up to much either.

So I finally have everything all tidy and done when my eldest walks in and decides to upset me. He knows how much pain and hurt my birthday normally brings me and now he has decided to add to it. He has just informed me that he will be leaving Friday morning for college and he wont be home until Saturday evening. I felt like the ground opened up beneath me and swollowed me whole. I know our relationship hasn't been great since he got back with that girl but I know now that he has decided a night playing monopoly with friends is much better than spending any time with me on my birthday so I guess I must learn to let go and except that he is no longer my child and he is an adult in his own right and leave him to get on with his own life and start living mine without him in it so much.

Rainy mondays

Guess what?? yeap...its still raining. Its starting to feel like we are living under water. That's all it seems to do is rain on us. I am longing for the summer now, warm sunny days where you can go out and do stuff instead of being stuck in at home all the time. But wait I will have to as its not even spring yet. Ah well at least I will be ready for the summer as the other afternoon I went into Tesco and they had a large selection of books from 25p so I'm stocked up all ready for lazy days sunbathing in the garden I cant wait!!!

Sunday best

Today has been the best Sunday in ages!!!!!! And I have had an awesome weekend over all. I am so so glad that I thought of me for a change and not had my mammy's head on. I guess I do have to start thinking as a person in my own right and not so much as just a mother these days as my boys are almost all grown up. 

I made a pork roast for dinner today and to actually have it at lunch time rather than late evening when the boys came home made a very nice change :-)) Then I decided to give rock smith a whirl, and I have to be honest I take off my hats to all those out there who can play guitar its so difficult and its going to take me for ever to learn, but I hope I decided to stick with it as I would love to one day be able to play at least one song!!!!

Well I sat down this afternoon to watch the Chelsea v Man utd game after meeting Leon's girlfriend, she seems like a polite girl and lets face it after my eldest Son's girlfriend anything is an improvement, but we will see what happens the more she is around. Leon was wishing he wasn't watching the game after such an awful performance and losing so badly!!! hehe me on the other hand I was sooooo pleased as you can well imagine!!!!

When the game was over we settled down and watched scary movie 5 omg it was soso funny!!! I haven't laughed so much in ages!!! and It wasn't over then either as hubby and I decided to cwtch up and watch grown ups too later tonight with a glass of JD and honey and some munchies I felt so relaxed and happy it was fantastic.

So here's to a wonderful weekend I have enjoyed every moment of it!!!!

Saturday football

Well another Saturday means one last weekend of football on the telly before it gets switched off as the offer is nearly over. Today we are watching the Liverpool game as hubby is a big fan, well I say we, I am actually watching but at the same time screaming at the vita we had for Christmas as it is just so so much harder than the ps3!!! but I shall not let it get to me!!! Hehe. The game was OK Liverpool in my opinion didn't play that great first half and I think a draw was deserved. 

Anyway after the game I cooked the three of us food as Jake was out again, I am starting to get used to only having one here on a Saturday night again just need to lose the other one a bit more LOL no I really do love having my boys home :-))

Another night on the ps3 for me playing singstar on line with my friend Paul, well it gives my boys a break from trying to humour me anyways xx

Let the weekend begin

This weekend is going to be a distraction free weekend, after everything that's gone on this week with Jake and college and everything else I just feel the need to have some fun. So I will start off by having a work out then getting this place clean and shiny all ready for the weekend. 

We decided this afternoon that we would take Jensen for a little stroll over to pets at home as we needed to get a mouse for Pycho any ways and he loves to go in there and meet the other dogs and I wanted to see how he would react to rabbits :-)) I was not expecting him mind not to be bothered by the bunnies but love the fish!!! 

Tonight I have decided to make meatballs for the very first time!! I was suprised they worked out very well and were quite tasty too!! and much cheaper to make than buying them ready done for you so there will be no stopping me now!!!!

Time to put my ps3 on for the evening after the big brother eviction of course and get my gaming and singing on!!!

Not much to say today

Today was just a quiet day, its still raining that's all it ever seems to be doing at the moment so there doesn't seem like much point in going out and trying to do much so I had a nice day at home cleaning gaming and relaxing. Hopefully this rain will disappear soon and bring some sunshine.