Its begining to look a lot like christmas!!!

So our town Christmas carnival today and as is our family tradition its time to stay in and decorate our home insted. It is always so cold in town and crowded not to mention the fact that as a teenager I used to enjoy it a bit and when the children where small but now I just dont see the fun in it anymore the fair is expensive too so we make our own fun!!! 

i also wanted to show you our puppy all dressed up!!! As I really dont think this will still fit him by christmas as he is growing so so so fast!!!!

So I just wanted to share the cards I have made for my boys they are made with krenick so they glitter ans parrkle in the light and once the lights go out they glow and I just love the affects!! See not just a pretty face hehehe!!! 

Christmas stitching and life!!!

Woohoooo!!!! I have finished it!!! Here is my dragon dreams 12 days of christmas from facebook last year and I just love it!!! I just have to decide how im going to get it finished now so I can put it up with my santas dragon.

Cant believe quite how much stitching I have acually got done in time for christmas this year so Im a happy girl :-)) here are some more cards I have finished too!!! I guess it just goes to show you can do it if you really try and a whole lot of late nights most deffinetly help. I just cant believe how slowly I seem to stitch these days since the accident with my wrist but at least I still can and that is the main thing!!! as they say slow and steady wins the race eventually I guess!!! So what is next??? well I am still working on my wolves and my draco pieces as well as haveing two haeds started which are no go at the momment if I am totally honest I just dont seem to want to do anything apart from get the wolves done its just such a large piece and I would love to have it finished this year but there seem so many distractions. Not to mention since injuring my shoulder no exercise has been done for weeks which isnt giving me the energy for doing much I need a bit of get up and go at the momment as I am struggling with the symptons of my peri menopause. But hopefully it wont last too long as I have too much to do for christmas!!! but at least all the decorating is finally almost done downstairs and thats a big help -))

some christmas stitching

I decided i would stitch the 12 days of Christmas freebie from dragon dreams last year on face book, but i decided i wanted to create a border. This is how its going so far xx I have always loved her designs so this has been a lot of fun and it should all be finished in a few days which
is great as I have a whole heap of cards that need doing before christmas!!! 

October already!!!!

Where is this year going? It seems to be flying past us so very quickly, it wont be long and it will be Halloween then Christmas!! Its already starting to get cold here and the nights are quickly starting to draw in which I love as my cats are in early and safe and warm at home but also as its the perfect time to curl up and stitch :-) Saying at here is my latest finish all ready for Halloween.

Halloween is my favourite holidays, don't get me wrong I do love Christmas but you don't get to dress up and have fun like you do on Halloween so it isn't the same. But I am getting ready for Christmas too as I have two cakes all baked in the last week ready I just have to feed them with dark rum now for the next 10 weeks and they will be lovely and rich and yummy!!! I am also going to be working on Christmas cards and stitching hopefully I will have something to show very soon. I have also been playing with my pc stitch and some supernatural pictures I am really hoping they will come out good but we will have to wait and see I guess. 

Wip updates

We have been sooo busy decorating our home that I haven't had much stitchy time lately really!!! But I have managed to get a few stitches in here and there so here are my updates on the two projects I am currently working on, first here is Draco I only seem to be working on this on light days which isn't great as we are just starting winter!!! but there you go. 

And here is my progress on my wolves, I am keeping my fingers crossed at least one will be finished this year hopefully both but with my Christmas stitching to do as well i am not really hopefully of that!!! 

weigh in week 6

I've decided  that I am not even going to look at the scale this week after everything that's been going on I don't want it to put me off or make me give up after the crazy week its been. x

What a crazy few days

I had a phone call from my Dad yesterday morning asking what I was doing, nothing much I replied ok he said I will be down in an hour just going to the drs as my chest is playing up. That's nothing unusual for my Dad so I didn't worry. I should of, because half hour later he was phoning me back asking me to drive him to the hospital as they thought it was his heart and had told him he was not allowed to drive. We spent all day at the hospital while he underwent tests and I had to go collect my step mum to visit him that evening as they decided to keep him in. I to relax that evening when I was watching big brother and was so happy when Sam won, had a few glasses of wine and heard nothing from the hospital.
Then this morning my Dad phoned said they wanted his medication up to the hospital, so I cycled down and collected it from the house, came home and then my husband walked up to the hospital with me, its a lovely summers day so it really was quite pleasant. I was speaking to the staff and they weren't really sure when he would be coming home even though all the tests where coming back normal he just had to wait to see the cardiologist team to find out what would be happening next. We walked home and had some lunch and a rest before the evening visiting hours when I would have to take my step mum back up to visit him , when I had a phone call from my Dad saying he was aloud home. I went to the hospital to collect him when I discovered that it was muscular they had decided so all the fuss had been for nothing!!! I'm just glad my Dads ok though :-)) but now we are getting in so I have had to get a take away tonight, it feels so naughty.

week 5 weigh in

Just as I though there has been a 1lb increase this week which I am sure will get worse with my wedding anniversary creeping closer and the meal I know will take me over what I should be eating in a day but as I want to watch myself change I am showing my start photos and my one month in, look away now if you don't want to see a fat girl!!!

 

 

 I am starting to see a change, and my clothes are all falling off so I know something is working!! but as I am doing zumba, ufc training and I have an exercise machine as well as healthy eating and I have also been out on my cycle and walking I don't know whats doing me more good!!!! But I do have to remind myself this is just the start.

  



And hopefully I will get down to what makes me happier, but people have started to notice which does make me smile :-)

My august stitching

Here is my wip for this month lets see if I can finish it before the month is out and I have to start on my christmas stitching!!!!

titching!!!!

4th weigh in

This week has been a very big struggle for me to keep on the right path. I was hurt badly by my oldest sons girlfriend. After trying so hard with this girl for the past three years including her in everything we have done as a family welcoming her in to our home and hearts she decided to tell us that we were not good enough to be a part of her life and then to add insult to injury she went and posted a video to face book hidden from us all insinuating that I was a bad mother, which I am grateful to my son for putting her right, but its beside the point really.
I cant understand where the hate is coming from as we have been nothing but welcoming to her. Needless to say for the foreseeable future the door has been closed on this part of my life and if my boy would like to continue the relationship that is his call but I do no longer what to play any part in it.
I have managed to lose a lb bringing me down to 190lb but I can see that going back up after hitting the wine as I was so upset. But onwards and upwards I guess, lets see what happens next x

3rd weigh in update

So here we go again, gee has it really been a week already??? Is that possible??? Oh well looks that way doesn't it. Ok I've been walking this week and I've been trying to cycle. yeah that's right trying hehehe I really don't cycle very well but I did give it a go :-)) So it was time for my weekly battle with the scale.....and I was 3 lbs down!!! woohooo that's 9 lbs in two weeks :-)) I seem to be doing ok at this, lets just see how next week goes xx

second weigh in time!!

So here goes, I have to say yes, I was very nervous setting foot on the scale but at the same time I knew I had been working very hard to try get myself motivated to cook differently and exercise even though I must say I've been loving it all!!! As I am peri menopausal atm (yes i know I'm only 38 but all the tests at the drs have proved in over christmas last year) I also knew that this was going to be no easy thing especially when I am having those days where I just don't want to do a thing!!! But do you know its working!!! I have lost 6 lbs this week :-)) So I am now down to 195 lbs and counting!!!

I know I said I wouldn't!!

But we did!!! Meet Jenson our new fur baby isn't he just soooo cute!!!!! It just hasn't been the same without a dog, I still miss Bud every single day and wish he was still with us he brought so much love into our lives, lets hope this little bundle will do the same xx

Its time for a change

I have started getting lazy again, it is time to get my bum in gear and get back to the healthy eating and exercise so here goes, as of today i weight in at 201 lbs its now or never time to stop being so lazy!!!!! wish me luck, I will be doing zumba and ufc trainer I also have a new exercise machine, I will be back next week to weigh in wish me luck!!!!

Happy 18th birthday Jake

Well today is the day you go from a boy to a man I hope you are ready for the big wide world Jake, I hope you understand that life is about to change and I really do hope all the decisions you make are the right ones for you and you will be very happy with them. Have a wonderful day xxx

My June stitchy update

With the heatwave we have been having here this summer I thought it was only fitting to have a summer finish!!!

Update on Sammy

Well I phoned the vets a lot yesterday he seems to be doing ok and I'm just thankful he made it through the night, He was still very shock up and sore and not eating very well I just feel so bad that I couldn't be with him but as he wasn't out of the woods yet he had to stay where he was. But when I phoned this morning I was allowed to go bring him home which was great but quite scary too as I knew I would have to drive on the motorway to go get him, but I wanted him so much I braved it and fetched him.

They think he may have a skull fracture and has bleeding on the brain but his jaw isn't broken as they first thought, only thing is that his eyes are very dilated and we will have to see how he goes he's not out of the woods yet and we aren't sure how his eye sight is working either. Lilly wasnt sure of him at all its like its not her Sammy so we will have to keep a close eye on them both  I am just so glad he is still with us and safe at home xx

I feel like my hearts been ripped out again

Tonight is a very sad night I cant believe what happened it was all so fast, Sammy had only been out for 10 minutes when there was a knock at our door asking if we had a little white and ginger kitten. I didn't recognised the lady that knocked so I just said yes why?? Oh she said I'm sorry but I think he's been hit by a car, my heart almost stopped no it cant be my Sammy... 

Leon and me followed her just around the corner from my house and there he was half laying in the road I very gently picked him up and he purred briefly. He was bleeding from his eye, nose and mouth I was so afraid he just didn't look like he was going to make it. I couldn't believe this was happening so soon to losing our dog it just wasn't fair!!! I got straight on the phone to my Dad who drove us up to the vets in Swansea and we had to leave without him. I cried all the way home with my jacket covered in his blood it was horrible to just have to leave him there. But he is in the best place and now the waiting begins.

My stitchy update for April

 This month was a quick stitch, it was also a very easy decision to make after the start of the year I have had, I need to learn that I am too giving always there for everyone but when I need understanding it seems like that's just too much to ask. And what's worse was I really had no idea what was happening until my son told me I needed to step back from a situation and see what happened. I guess its easy to see what's happening to someone else that it is when its happening to you. It especially made my mind up the day before my birthday, lets just say we all know my track record with birthdays and what happened made this one no different.Never mind when every door closes a new one eventually opens xx

My march finish

Thought this one looked very pretty until I started working on it a few years ago dragged it out just to finish it this month because it has to be said even though I think the finish looks ok, I hated working on it.

                                  

Happy 16th birthday!!!!

I just would like to wish my youngest baby a very happy birthday!!! It wont be long now and both my babies will have left school and be in college, where does all the time go?? We hope you have a wonderful day Leon xx

My February stitching.

Here are the two pieces I have managed to finish this month, it is just so nice to have the stitchy bug back!!!! 

Well its been a very emotional few days, my tears haven't stopped the house is so quiet so empty and there has been a very big hole in my heart since we lost you baby. So we have decided to get a kitten well that was the plan to try and help me because I am just so lost with out any pets at all. We had plans to get a little ginger and white tom from a house where he could no longer stay, hes not a baby he is 5 months old and needs love just as much as I do. But then I get a call from my eldest son who has a little girl who is about the same age desperately needing a new home too so all of a sudden we have two!!! Here is Lilith and Samael, welcome to your new home guys xxx

Good night my sweet baby xxx

Today a very bright candle has blown out, so with a very heavy heart I have had to let you go over to rainbow bridge where I hope you are young well and healthy again chasing bubbles and bees like you used to love so so much.

                                     

We will never forget you Bud you will always live on in our hearts forever. But we have had to take the hardest decision ever and let you go, this christmas has been a struggle for you and its got harder and harder watching the light in your eyes start to fade. You have been a strong boy you where 15 and a half now doing so very well for a dog of your age. Thank you so much for yesterday when you came to me and put your head on my hand and told me you where ready to go it was so sad but so lovely. 

I don't know how I am going to cope with out you to come home to. But I know you are in a better place.

One day we will meet again my baby please stay strong for me and I will try for you,  love you always and forever Mammy xxxxx

17 years today

I married my hubby, hard to believe how fast time goes it sneaks up on you before you know it!! I just wanted to wish my hubby a happy anniversary im looking forward to a child free evening ok they will still be here but in their bedrooms :-)) Happy anniversary babe xxx

Happy birthday Jakey!!!

I can hardly believe that my oldest will be a fully grown adult this time next year............ when he was born 17 years ago I really didnt know how long I would have my baby for the way he came into this world, 11 days late I was indused and then that took 2 days untill they finally put me on a drip and he was born with no crying and he was grey with no heart beat. They brought him around showed me quickly what he looked like and then he was gone upto the scbu and I was left with empty arms and a photo of you. The first few weeks of your life yopu were sicky and then they thought you had meningitas when you were two weeks old and I nearly lost you again but baby you were a fighter!! Two weeks before your first birthday you were in hospital again having an operation on your tounge which you managed to slice open in a zigzag falling over this again was an awful experience when they gassed you in my arms to make you sleep and you went limp in my arms. Up to the age of 5 you were in and out of hospital with sickness they just couldnt explain. When I look at you now I really cant believe how lucky I am that you are still here after all that you have been through. Youve made us so pround and we are so lucky to have you and your brother you are both wonderful children and we love you loadsxxxx HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAKE!!!!!!

What ive been working on while watching the footie :-)

I love the football thats no secret and its been great being able to watch two games everyday since last saturday :-)) I thought on monday it maybe a good idea to try and fit in a little stitching time while I enjoy it :-)) So I pulled out one of the charts hubby bought me for christmas and decided it looked easy enough to be able to concentrate on the game and the stitching at the same time hehe and it seems to be going well. I also started a new diet on monday so this helps take my mind off eating a little too which is great, I really need to lose some of the weight ive put on while not being asble to use my arm but im getting my life back on track slowly and trying to forget those that clearly forgot me after what they did. I also have been working on my fitness and I tried out UFC trainer on the ps3 move on tuesday morning and i have to say im still suffering today haha but oh well no pain no gain right :-))

My first finish of the year :-))

Here is my very first finish of the year I am so happy to finally be back stitching that I really dont care that it is june LOL Its a dragon dreams design called treasure them now and is done on sassys fabbies, it was slow and quite painful at times to complete but at last its finished!!!! Doubt very much though that I will complete my goal of 12 finishes in 12 months I guess I will have to start that again in January.

Stitchy update at very long last :-))

Here is an update of my stitching I have to say it has been a very very long 14 weeks with out lifting my needle I didnt ever think I would miss something quite so much but I really really have its just sooooo nice to be back doing something I love im never going to take advatage of being able bodied so much again. I have had a lovely morning baking chocolate cake with my youngest today he maybe 15 but its so nice we can still do these things together I guess it helps that its been pouring with rain since yesterday afternoon so hes home for a change :-)) I hope you all enjoy your weekend and bank holidays for all those here in the uk xxx

Had a busy week

This week I have been busy I have been working in my garden putting the pool up for the kids and stitching!!!!!!!!! yes thats right I said it STITCHING!!!!!! wooohooo at long long last I can stitch again :-)))) can you tell im a little excited!!! hehe oh its been so so long. Im slow and cant do it for as long as I want but its a start right??? Its been so warm here ive been out in the garden doing it. Weve also had a bbq this weekend and a night out with friends my life suddanly just seems to be getting back on track and im spending time with the people who have been there for me the last 14 weeks. I am back at the hospital tomorrow for my physio and yes I am still supposed to be wearing my cast each time I leave the house but we will see how much longer for not too long I really do hope!!! I promise I will get some photos of my dragon up this week, thankyou to all those who have listerned to me moaning the last few months I am trying to get back to normal :-))) Hope youve all had an amazing weekend I know I have im just so happy everythings falling back into place xxxxxxxxx

20 years today

Donny and me became a couple its been a bumpy ride at times we have been through so many good times and some bad, but we are still together going strong I love you so much xxxx

good luck!!!

Leon starts his gcses today and Jake his alevels tomorrow just want to wish my boys the best of luck!!!! xxxxx

Champions league final tonight!!!

You all know who i will be cheering for!!! Gonna party weither we win or lose whoooohooo i do love the footie!!! COME ON CHELSEA!!!!!!!!!!!!! xxxxxx

FA cup party time!!!!

Today Chelsea and Liverpool are playing in the FA cup final as I am Chelsea and Donny is Liverpool we thought we might aswell have a party to celebrate well why not isnt it!!! As I can acually manage to cook a few things now as long as I take my time I have made up some spicy cheese and sausage rools and some vanilla and raspberry doughnuts and some peanut butter cookies boy have I missed baking!!! Im loving it!!!! Hope you all have a brilliant night I know we will we have Louise and her bf and his kids coming over after the footie, even though I am a little scared after my birthday party these are different people so im just looking foward to it :-)) xxxx COME ON CHELSEA!!!!!!

TIRED

had a slight break down tonight not hadling the who wrist situation to well the physio has been stepped up its so painful Ive even had to go into our neighbours to explain why im screaming yelling crying and laughing while im having it done. Its been going on for so many weeks I really did think I was a strong person but its pushed me so far so hard and learning that people you thought cared for you really dont give a damn it has all been to much :-(( Im going to be ok I guess everyone has to let it all out at some point tonight was thestart for me. I have to pick myself up now and get ready for tomorrow xxxx

My first physio session

Well I wasnt looking foward to today after all I had been through with my ankle and I was right to be nervous!!! I have been given exercises to do and boy are they gonna hurt I will try my best though I would really like to get back to normal now, will see what happens when i go back :-))

friday the 13th

And how wilol you be spending yours?? Im off to my friends daughters 15th birthday party wearing my plaster!!! Lol everyone stay safe xxx

Just a reminder

Im off today for my yearly booby check please ladies dont forget to keep an eye on yourselves and check regually xxxxxxx

Another update

Today we were at the hospital again for both my arm and my hubbys eyes. My hubbys appointment went ok he has new meds and still all his old ones but the condition hasnt worsened whioch is a good thing but he has to have glasses with a special tinted lencse to see if that will help with his light sensativity the only draw back was that they cost almost �70!!!! I was nearly crying paying for them that had better work!!!! Lmao. My appointment wasnt great. I have been told I need physio here at the hospital I am allowed to take off my cast at home and when I go out I have to wear it at all times. They have given me permission to drive without my cast as it is my right wrist and I can just hole the wheel I dont need to use it to change gears but thats a scary thought to me as I know how painful it is without my cast so I think I will wait another week before I try to do that. I just have to wait for the appointment now and see what happens next. I miss my crafts so much I am so bored I have manages to just about hold a joypad and Ive been playing the ps3 a bit which does help the boredom but Im still struggling to do much else. Id be going crazy if I didnt have my friends to pop across to for a cuppa and a chat. And incase your wondering no I havent see the others at all.

Another hospital visit

Ive been back to the hospital yet again, yes a very boring life I lead I know lol. They took off the plaster and my wrist still isnt healed :-(( I thought maybe because I was starting to be able to do a few things for myself I admit not that much but somethings it was getting better but apparantly not. I now have another cast this time though it can be removed for bathing the first week and boy does it need that!!!! But it has to be left on at all other times. And the second week it has to be removed at bed time and a few times during the daytime when I need to try to exercise it a little self physio I am so not looking foward to that it is just so painful I cant believe its taking so long to heal :-(( I do feel better im myself since stopping the painkillers but im still so useless Imiss everything I used to do, I haved stitched in weeks I havent been able to play any of my dance games on the ps3, zumba s gone out of the window. I cant cook or bake or anything.The laptop is a nono I just cant manage to hold it and type and doing it by the table is just uncomfy if I do it for to long. Nevermind they do say all good things come to those who wait I just dont like the waiting part. Back in two weeks.

Happy birthday Leon!!!

I would like to wish my baby boy a very happy 15th birthday!!! You are just growing so so fast!!! This is the first time in ages I havent been able to bake you a cake or make you a card and im so sorry I promise I will make up for it next year. Me and Daddy hope you have a wonderful day xxxxx

Two weeks later

I went to the hospital last monday the xray was good and Ive been back today thankfully they have taken off the temp plaster and replaced it with a new one, I really needed this as it was crumbling. The xrays are good my wrist was bent in such a shape when they took the older plaster off I dont think it will ever be the same again. The last two weeks of my life have been a blur, I cannot do anything for myself, every movement I make is aggony. The painkillers have made me sleepy or feeling spaced but I cannot sleep every movement just wakes me with the terrible shotting pain it gives me :-(( I feel so useless so down I hate it. Ive decided to give up the painkillers I really do not like what they are turning me into and I think its starting to scred my boys too. The people who caused the accident have been over to see one once I dont understand I thought we were friends, if I caused this accident I would of been there everyday checking if they were ok, asking if they needed anything. Iam so grateful for my friend who lives opposite she has been here everyday just calling to see how im doing if I need anything and my Dad has been wonderful. I am so grateful for all my husband is doing I have been useless in everything hes even been sleeping on the sofa to make sure he doesnt hurt me I feel so so bad. Im back at the hospital in three weeks lets hope time heels.

I was sooo wrong.

I should of known better things always go wrong and this year was no exception to that rule. The woman that came to my party got very very drunk, so drunk that she fell asleep in my garden twice whilst going for a cigarette. We had to take her home and thats when things went very badly wrong. I wish I knew what happened but truth is I dont. All I remember was walking down the street then waking up in the road with a split lip and my head spinning, when I walked into my house and looked down at my wrist I knew it wasnt good. My husband took me to A&E where they told me it was deff broken and put my arm into a temp cast and return in the morning. I took Leon back to the hospital with me after having no sleep that night from the pain. When i got to the hospital they gave me morphine twice it did nothing at all for the pain :-(( they then sedated me and sent my son out of the room where three people twist my wrist back into plcae after removing the temp cast. They told me I would feel the pain but I wouldnt remember it, they were very wrong. They then kept me there for an hour after replacing the cast taking xrays and sending Leon back in then sent me home with very strong painkillers and told me to return again in the morning. When I got up to leave I couldnt feel my legs I felt like id been drinking all night!!! We got in the taxi and went home.

When we got home my friend Louise came to check on me after she had found out what had happened and also my dad came then the pain killers kicked in but I didnt really sleep. We went back to the hospital in the morning and there they told me i had fractured my wrist in 7 places and it was a very nasty break which if slipped out of place would require surgery to pin it back in place but the xray I had this morning showed that luckily so far it had stayed in place. I had to go to the dentist with Leon then walked to the drs for more painkillers before walking home whilst in so much pain. When I finally got home I had a visit from the husband of the people who had been over to my birthday who didnt really want to see how I was just to shout at me for ignoring my facebook because Id been in the hospital for the accident that he and his wife had caused. I was too shocked to say much just hurt and supprised by this actions. I couldnt really believe what I was hearing as I didnt blame anyone for what had happened but was in too much pain to care really. Im back at the hospital next week for another Xray.

party time!!!!

Tonight I am having an early birthday party :-)) as usually things tend to go horribly wrong around my birthday I really do hope Iam making the right choice deciding to invite our friends and thier four children over along with us four. I have cooked up a storm and I have the dancing singing games ready to go I am so so looking fowrad to partying the night asway!!! As my acually birthday is on tuesday I thought saturday seemed like a good idea.

Happy birthday Donny

Today is my hubbys birthday so I just wanted to wish him a happy birthday have a wonderful day Donny xxx

New year greetings .

I hope everyones new year is off to a wonderful start, ours is going pretty good so far, our christmas was hectic but a whole lot of fun :-)) lots of parties and always seemed to have a housefull lol!! For the first time this christmas i had some stitchy gifts and i am so pleased with them it makes a big chamge for me and i was chuffed to bits :-)) I have added the charts to my to do pile all kitted up but i have to be honest i do have a whole lot to get through before i can even get started on these, I have never had a stand before so I am looking foward to giving it a try i am only ised to using my hoop so its all new!!! I had a few dancing games for xmas on the ps3 too and i am so looking foward to having a good go on them, get me up and moving and get some of this weight off lol at least i onkly put a few pounds on over xmas so its not too bad i guess. At least this year we havent been covered in snow either so its been a bit warmer which is great, I hope you are all enjoying the holidays xxx

Happy new year!!!

I hope you all enjoy your evening. We are having a street party shared between three houses tonight its gonna be hectic lol!!! Stay warm and stay safe xxxx

Merry christmas!!!

I would just like to send a warm christmas wish out to all my wonderful friends on here please have a happy and safe holidays. See you all in 2012!!!!